Now I understand why my friends have been pestering me to update this thing-- it's been a while!
This past month, overall, has been good. Last update I told y'all about Rene's wedding so I guess I don't need to touch on that. Let's see... The Dinner Auction went well. We ended up raising about $4,300, which is significantly better than last year. Um... I spent the Thanksgiving holiday at my pastor's house with about 19 other people so I wasn't alone :) This past weekend I spent travelling with 3 youth and one parent to Concordia-Portland and Concordia-Nebraska. It was A-L-O-T of travelling (never again will I buy two round-trip tickets to save $150... it's just not worth it!) but the kids got a lot out of the visits and I think Hunter is planning on going to CUNE so that's GREAT! It was nice to see some of you there... being back on campus made me feel really, really old but it was nice to see old friends :)
On Tuesday I asked Pastor Rockey if it'd be okay if I went home for Christmas to spend it with my family. My mom had found a "cheap"-$780-ticket for me to fly home on the 22nd and come back to Alaska on the 26th. Well, he said no... that is, unless I stayed longer than 3-days. Thus, I'm flying to Sacramento on the morning of the 20th and flying back to Alaska on the 30th. I think 10-days is about all I can handle with my family. So, I'm excited...
Ministry things are going alright. I'm almost in a constant state of frustration because things aren't going the way I'd like them to... but I try to remind myself that things are done in God's timing in this place, not mine, so I need to be patient.
Things with David-- yes, I realize I'm stupid and naive about what happened a few weeks ago before Rene's wedding. Thanks to Kristy and everyone else, I realize he didn't want me he just wanted to make out. And after I got back from Rene's wedding we were talking about hunting (which is actually a common topic when talking with David) and he told me that he'd never go to Africa-- hunting or otherwise. Now, for those of you who know what my time in Kenya meant to me and continues to mean to me, this was a light bulb moment. If he wouldn't want to travel with me, then why am I interested in keeping him? So, at that moment, I was genuinely okay. I realized God has better for me.
Now don't get me wrong, I may be okay but that doesn't necessarily mean I'm over him. I mean, do you ever truly get over someone with whom you've been in love? I know that I never have. Even with all my past boyfriends, they all still mean something to me (some more than others) and I know David will always be a part of me. I just pray that I'm open to God's timing for whomever I'm supposed to be with... if I'm supposed to be with anyone at all.
So, the sun set about two hours ago. The darkness is starting to get to me. So, I'm gonna go home, warm up some spaghetti and either read more of "Narnia" or watch an old movie. If you wanna chat, you know where to reach me!! TTYL
