Conflicted

For the past year or so I've been contemplating going back to school. I've found an interesting program, in which, oddly enough, an old classmate of mine has just enrolled. It's at a Jesuit university "not far"* from home and 95% of the classes are online. Seems perfect, no?

I was initially going to start this past September but then somebody went and proposed so it got pushed back to starting in January 2009. I've been talking with Heidi at Gonzaga and she really wants to help me get my files started...

Well, for some reason or another I've been conflicted about taking the plunge...

• I sort of feel like I'm being pushed into going to grad school. Between my church and the endless contact from Heidi, I just feel like there's all this pressure and it's making me second-guess my choice in program
• The Miller's Analogies Test kinda scares me even though you're only supposed to shoot for a 30%... YIKES
• Never have I ever been so afraid of school and classwork and ::gasp:: homework! It's been so long do I still have the time-management/patience/skill to do that?!
• MONEY. MONEY. MONEY. How in the world am I going to fork over $27K (we don't have) when my husband is also in grad school?
• Will the pay increase be worth $27K in the next two years?

I guess it just seems like a big step...

Ugh

*"not far" means Spokane, WA... everything is far away from Alaska but Washington State is as close as it gets :)

Manic Mondays

Monday. Monday was a bad day for Jamie. Monday started out knowing that my computer at work was on the fritz (I'd later find out just how 'fritzed'). I woke up later than planned and found out that my insurance company was charging me $140 for a prescription they've previously charged me $20. A bit of a difference there. Then I went to the DMV in Anchorage to change my driver's license and ALL their computers were down. It took nearly 3 hours to finish that task.  Then  I got the phone call about my computer-- FRIED. Eric said when he took it apart it was actually smoking. Not good. So then I ran to Wal-Mart to buy another. Add to all of this the fact that is was (a) my day off and (b) the one month of marriage mark and you might see why I was so flustered. 

Then I came home to these:

The hubs, he's good.

To see some pictures from the wedding, visit our blog at philipandjamie.blogspot.com!

4:45am

I have been dreading this day since September 3rd. That was the day my youth convinced me that they would actually show up to church at 6:15am for Breakfast Bible Study and Prayer. Believe you me it took some convincing to actually put that on the calendar for the rest of the year but the kiddos promised they'd make the effort.

So this morning my alarm went off at 4:45am. I got out of bed 15 minutes later and was out of the house 20 minutes after that. Yesterday I stayed at church between Confirmation and Youth Group to make the Cheesy Egg Casseroles so all I had to do this morning was pre-heat the oven.

The good news? I had SEVEN kids show up! Add to that two parents who stuck around and myself and we've got a total of 10 people!!! I think that's pretty amazing for 6:15am.